My DuMdUm World

Wednesday, December 31, 2003

Haha... new year eve. Count down. Then watch movie. Luna never watch mah, so she go home. WTF... I am invisible. No hi no bye. I do not exist. That is really wtf.

DO i deserve this?

Sian... talk to lance a lot of things throughout the night. I need to forget... my past. I always say i put down, i let go... But i cannot. I really miss... But now is too late. I cannot be weak. I must forget, even if she is good to me. I also cannot give in. Because she is the one who leave me. And make me wait 1 year. And then find a bf in jc. Must never forget. The pain i feel.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 8:11:00 PM

Monday, December 29, 2003

Wah kao. How? All my money... Breg. How my brother university my sister want to go university i want to go university my parents going to retire. Only i working. And i going to army soon. My money work so hard... My brother already in uni... cannot come out so bo bian. My sister... A level, have to go uni. Bo bian also. I got diploma already. I guess is i sacrifice lor.

How? I need to support my family already and pay household expenses. Now no jobs. Where got money? All my fault. All the burden. I must carry alone.

ALONE. Why nobody can come and share my burden. I good to everybody, nobody is good to me.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 10:53:00 PM

Saturday, December 27, 2003

How? I feel very sian leh. I always feel very sian. I always feel this way and want to stop but i just cannot. I just cannot stop. I just want to do it. Even if i am sian. How i am addicted. Addicted to love

She treat me so cold like i not there. I am invisible.

Everyone treat me like i am invisible. Cause i dun talk much.

Maybe i am sick. That's why i cannot talk. Love you so much it hurts. I dowan to love. I only want to be good. To everyone.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 11:29:00 AM

Friday, December 26, 2003

Lesson on gambling. Win less is also win. FUCK LAH Bet on Soto and lost. Next time i will do my homework and bet. Not just hear ppl comments and po heng suay. Damn i hate to lose. I make sure i dun lose on sunday.

Today matches no good picks. Cause i never see webby.

Thx i bet n lost on 1 match.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 6:44:00 AM

Thursday, December 25, 2003

Merry christmas to all the readers out there. Those ppl who are still reading my blog after so many boring entries. Well christmas eve was spent at Mayu's place. Not bad quite fun, got Nintendo to play. The very antique one. Didn't really play much though... In fact i didn't really join in much at mayu's house. Very tired wanted to go home... But *shrug* nvm lah. I gave the present to Luna. Everytime its like that. I have something to give. but i will wait until the last moment then i will give.

Then i see her like so sad so sad no present. Then she like very sad. Then i gave her the present, then she filled with smiles happiness and energy again. Actually... I did not know if i should have give her the present. Or leave the present stay with me. But then in the end i still give. And i think i did the right thing.

Very tired. I no money already. I spend all my spending money. But i wun touch my saving. Never.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 10:05:00 AM

Monday, December 22, 2003

Wah kao... i woke up at 6am in the morning... Nightmare. T.T

I dunno why i dream that my ex find another bf liao. Then i got another dream. Dream of xue wen. Hmm maybe should pay her a visit. Long time never see her already. Omg i have so many weird dreams.

Oh yeah, jackpot
manchester city - leeds DRAW

(0) So Waddaya Think! 5:16:00 PM

Ok! now this is going to be my betting blog!

Today bet on manchester city - leeds. I think leeds will win but i buy draw! GL HF!

(0) So Waddaya Think! 6:28:00 AM

Saturday, December 20, 2003

Ok i buy 1 present. But i dunno if i should give... i have either 2 ppl i can give it to... Lets bet and then lets flip a coin decide who gets it.

GL HF

(0) So Waddaya Think! 11:59:00 AM

Thursday, December 18, 2003

Ok just finish finding what i want to buy for christmas. This year i think... I dunno who i going to buy christmas present for leh... I know i have to buy for my sister. Other than that... i think maybe i just buy for 1 or 2 ppl can liao lah. I hope i dun get anything... From ppl who i not buying for. Or else i will guilty

(0) So Waddaya Think! 10:25:00 AM

Tuesday, December 16, 2003

Ah thinking of the movie i watch. Actually i think i am quite like the guy in the movie. Starting is want to help make her dun feel so sad but slowly start to really fall in love with her liao. Maybe it's like that ba. Then everything he do, no matter how stupid the thing is, no matter how dum dum the thing is, as long as it will make her happy... As long as is something she want, he will do for her. I think that's how i am ba... I think that's why i am dumdum.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 5:08:00 PM

Just watch finish Sassy girl. Eh quite a nice show... Very meaningful arh

Sian leh... Dun really know... I nowadays morning go swim! Then after that go bugis eat. Then stay at bugis a while then go home. Everyday very tired. Sleep quite early!

Ahh i dunno... Sometimes i feel like quite close... sometimes i feel like not close. I also dunno what to think. Maybe is true, that guys very easy to sensitive. Dunno i thinking too much or not.
?.?

(0) So Waddaya Think! 9:31:00 AM

Sunday, December 14, 2003

Claypot again. My betting luck really very poor T.T
I think i quit already. Starting always win a lot keep winning. Then start to lose liao. T.T

Nvm never win never lose ;D
Go sleep le... tmr still must wake up early to go swimming... how? 3 hours of sleep. Wait i drown in pool ;D

(0) So Waddaya Think! 12:55:00 PM

Saturday, December 13, 2003

Ah damn sian, lose a lot of money... I start to bet on soccer again! Last time i bet on world cup lose 100+ Now i start to bet again. Bet so i can buy christmas present... A very nice present. But i think... No luck lah lately.

Why? Why cannot let me win so i can give u something nice?

(0) So Waddaya Think! 10:56:00 AM

Monday, December 08, 2003

Looking at the pages of my life
Faded memories of me and you
Mistakes you know I’ve made a few
I took some shots and fell from time to time
Baby, you were there to pull me through
We’ve been around the block a time or two
I’m gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how we’ve come this far
The answer’s written in my eyes

[chorus:]
Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don’t wanna sleep tonight, dreamin’s just a waste of time
When I look at what my life’s been comin’ to
I’m all about lovin’ you

I’ve lived, I’ve loved, I’ve lost, I’ve paid some dues, baby
We’ve been to hell and back again
Through it all you’re always my best friend
For all the words I didn’t say and all the things I didn’t do
Tonight I’m gonna find a way

[chorus:]
Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don’t wanna sleep tonight, dreamin’s just a waste of time
When I look at what my life’s been comin’ to
I’m all about lovin’ you

You can take this world away
You’re everything I am
Just read the lines upon my face
I’m all about lovin’ you

[guitar solo]

[chorus:]
Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don’t wanna sleep tonight, dreamin’s just a waste of time
When I look at what my life’s been comin’ to
I’m all about lovin’ you

All about lovin’ you

I guess this is the song ;D

(0) So Waddaya Think! 9:09:00 AM

Let he among you who is without sin cast the first stone. Dunno why i keep hearing this line. U know what this sentence means? It means dun scold other people for their mistakes... Unless u have never made that mistake before. Which is impossible ;D

Today went swimming... SO LONG NEVER EXERCISE! OMG i swim 1 lap i already want to die. Then swim 2nd lap my leg cannot move liao. Then after that... like numb liao leh, keep on swimming. Feel quite shiok! Must swim more often!

>_<... Got a lot of things i want to say. But i dunno how to say. ?.?

(0) So Waddaya Think! 8:58:00 AM

Friday, December 05, 2003

Whole week never update blog ;D.
Sian this whole week... nothing much done. I going army o 17 feb! i wanna enjoy myself until then. 3 days after valentine i go ns. Wonder how i will celebrate it. SIan think about it already sian.

Aiyah... Happy things... dun happen to happy people. Happy people make happy things happen. Slowly read this message and try to understand what i mean by it... That's the reason why i want you to be happy. So more happy things will happen your way. So pls stay happy and dun be sad ;D

I know what to get for christmas liao le ;P

(0) So Waddaya Think! 11:33:00 AM

Monday, December 01, 2003

Wah christmas is coming... Time to go holiday shopping and present hunting... Wonder whose present to buy and what to buy for each person. Whole day stay at home... these few days really damn bored... if anyone can, go out pls T.T

Watched ARE YOU HOT? CHANTILLE ROX she so cute. ;D

but then i think some people more cute >_<

(0) So Waddaya Think! 1:53:00 PM